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the sea: Melbourne 1998 - 99
1999 - 2002
I am sometimes
asked: how did you start to draw ?
steps : In 1998 I found myself doing a lot of 'doodling'.
I wanted to draw something but because I had no real training
or background, I was hesitant. I did not think of myself as
having talent or of being “an artist”.
remember thinking: "So what ?! who cares ?! - just do what
you want ! No one has to look at it, its just because you want
to do it ! " and from that thought the principles
that have given me the freedom to put pen to paper ever since:
is no such thing as a "wrong" brushstroke, no such
thing as a "wrong" line.
- It does
not matter in the least what anyone else thinks.
- Run with and follow the thread of Feeling, don't worry about 'rules'. What would I want to see/read now... what is interesting, where is the joy and adventure... ?
2 principles capture a mood, a feeling not just
an intellectual understanding. What had held me back were the
feelings of inadequacy, the fear of making a "mistake"
or a "wrong" brushstroke and of course the universal
fear of what others would think. They might think it was ugly,
rubbish or whatever. So what ?! I will draw no matter what,
even if no-one ever sees it.
method: Once I had entered the feeling-mood given
by these 2 principles, I simply started to draw. There was no
overall plan, I did not try to 'copy something', by that I mean
I did not try to get as close as possible to some 'ideal' picture
I had in mind. Instead I proceeded line by line. The only important
criterion for each new line was: did it feel right ?
The picture of what was on paper already would influence the
feeling for the next line and so on..the method of 'doodling'
is perhaps the best way to drescribe it.
I wonder if this is how life is supposed to be lived, at least
for me... looking back it would sometimes seem so: step by step...
line by line... there are no 'wrong' moves...
of the drawings took less than an hour, others took a year or
more before they were finished. Some were completed in one sitting,
others were completed in many small stages, a few minutes here
and there waiting for someone, unwinding after work or mulling